Jinx

So I figured at some point I should talk about myself a little bit in depth, so I might as well do it for my first post.

So, I am a human. I swear. I do human things like grocery shop build credit. Because that what humans do. And boy oh boy am I a full blooded, totally average, ‘normal’ human.

Ok, so there. That about covers it….

TRICKED YA ;D

Pulled a little sneaky on ya.

First, in broad strokes(this part already covered in the about page), I am a book and computer junkie. No, not for games or social media. I love me some of that sweet sweet technical information about them. How computers works, how the hardware works, how its all programmed. You know, the intricate details of the most complex web of information and technology ever designed by humans. I loves them <3. A well configured terminal gets me harder than a steel girder. I use Linux as my main OS. I personally don’t care for Windows or Macs and love the depth of control you can have over the entirety of your system. I mean, just this morning0 I accidentally deleted my /dev drive(unfortunate mis-autocompletion with the good ol’ -rf). Can’t do cool shit like that in Windows. There’s just way to many fail-safes sitting around trying to tell ME how to live MY life. That’s just horseshit. Its my computer, my files. Fuck off Microsoft.

While I can program, for a long time I was more into(***WARNING DOUCEBAG ALERT AHEAD***) cyber security. Less for practical uses and more for fun. All of it is like solving complex detective and logic puzzles. Looking for those loop-holes. Finding abusable permissions. Writing your first memory exploit. Its all just puzzles to me. I don’t actually care about breaking into anything, pen-testing or blue teaming. Why debase a point of intrigue and entertainment by making it so serious. Either why, regardless of what a person gets from this field I do think it gives you a different way of looking at all of this from a perspective others might not see. So it was worth it just for that.

I have been programming as a hobby on and off since high-school. Never too seriously until my interest in cyber-sec started about 6 years ago. Then I was forced to up my game so I could write my code for the tools I needed, especially for those one off cases. So it picked up to a much more functional level then,

I then took a break from computers for 2 and a half years. I went back to the life of filthy normie. Working, netflix, got healthy, lost 110 pounds, stopped drinking. I went and got me some shitty job for a shitty company that gives you shitty pay to do a shitty amount of work. It’s one of those dime’a’dozen stores that has a deli inside and a few gas pumps outside.

Ive worked there for a little over a year now. I am the manager for the deli and it sucks. Not only am i entirely out of my depth doing this job I work in the store in the area that is considered the problem store. We cycle through employees every two months. Its fucking bonkers. Not only am I not organized enough to ir but my memory also start failing me when I start getting overwhelmed. Which happens a lot because the company is cracking down on our store now, which is causing me to make more mistakes, which is pissing everyone off. Another huge factor for getting overwhelmed is inconsistent sound levels(Loud one sec, quiet the next), lots of visual movement to process, and having to listen to people talk to me. I always feel like I have to actively translate in my head what the hell those stupid sounds coming out of their mouths actually mean, then process for a sec or two, then respond. I would be better off faxing these bitches all day. I also get get confused when talking to people, sometimes they are just throwing too much at me at once. When I’m overwhelmed my thinking becomes very very fast and vert disjointed.

Anyway, after a particularly rough week, I called out both Thursday and Friday. When I get like this I cant focus on anything. Talking for too long makes me upset and overwhelmed and I start tearing up. I yell at people. So right now Im just trying to enjoy my solitude and recharge before Monday. When I get there I’m going to have to tell my POS manager that i need to change my availability, which I know drops me to part time, which means I will have to give up the position, which he will not like because it will take them a while to refill my position, but tough shit. I promise I wasn’t always this hostile about this job. I was a do-good-er company man up until like a month and half ago. So now I’m going to explore other options. Not sure what those options are yet though.

So now I found myself back home where I belong. In front of a terminal. Tinkering away. Not for money, notoriety, or ego. But because I am bored AF with the average life of the average person and want this excitement and intrigue back. I mean really, what they fuck is the point of having all these toys if we cant play with them. (Saying that now has me annoyed about snapdragon cpu’s and blocking my root access to my phone. I don’t actually need root access for anything. It just majorly fucking pisses me off that they stopped me from doing it).

Stay safe out there smarticle particles.